Puddle puddle

The weather today is something else, all winds and storms. I went for a walk this afternoon and was buffeted by the gales, which felt good and alive, with only a couple of drowned rat moments.
I had the viva yesterday which went fine and now have the Msc that has been haunting me for the [...]

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Stress

I’m all stressed about the viva tomorrow, the final bit of the masters will be done, but all of the tension has moved to the middle of my back, all of a sudden Mari C has become stiff as anything again.
There is something that for me the stress and tension seems to sit in [...]

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Back to the banda

Somehow over the last few weeks I had lost the really bhanda centred practice that I had around the time of sharath’s London visit.
When I got back to the practice today however it was back, the centredness and the ability to engage the bhandas which has been totally missing in action for the last [...]

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The cough

This dang cough, there was a little on thursday more on Friday, definately there Saturday and Sunday now really bad today….. Woke at 4.30 on a moon day and couldn’t get back to sleep….
I’m not sure what it is infection or asthma so have started all of the asthma inhalers and will wait a [...]

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Catch up

So the last week has been a blur, here are the selected highlights and low lights:
The Healer:
so last week I went to see the healer that I got recomended, she was fantastic, I wanted to free the energy block that I had in the solar plexus and heart, and through a kind of guided meditation [...]

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Still working on the block

Yep somehow I’m still blocked with regard to the yoga, I am still in avoiding mode, not sure why this is, well I have several ideas, firstly that I am not settling myself in bed as quickly as I would want and this means that I don’t want to get up, somehow living alone makes [...]

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Slow and steady

Well I have restarted practice, three days in now, and it feels good, I am leaving happy and joyful, there are no major traumas at the moment at all it just seems to be working for me.
Makes me wonder what on earth I was scared of about going back…. I do wonder if it was [...]

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Facing the fear

I had known that I had been avoiding practice ever since the split, all for reasons I was justifying to myself, first I wasn’t sleeping until 4 am and getting up at 5.30 seemed ridiculous in that case (I know I know it probably would have helped the sleep), then it felt like i was [...]

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Being looked after

So the fear I was feeling when I posted earlier about returning to the flat after the ex had removed his stuff was worse than finding it when he had. It was sad but did feel better as I don’t have to fear that any more.
My friend came over, we found I no longer have [...]

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Building eggshells

The last week has been all about the rebirth, I started he new job on Monday, having had a rather miserable weekend where Sunday was a bit of a misery fest. Then monday new job, which at least let me start the begining, the week has been quiet as anything, just induction and then in [...]

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